| new home! |
[Mar. 21st, 2010|05:36 pm] |
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After some major DNS issues I was able to get the blog moved. Check it out: www.clarkandtovah.com |
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[Nov. 6th, 2008|08:04 pm] |
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It has been over two years since I made a post on here. You can see how well the "revamping" went from my last post. However, on the completely off chance anyone even sees my journal I've been keeping a wordpress blog my most excellent friend Justin setup for me. Check it out
I must say, the fact that I remembered the html to make that link by hand makes me proud in a 9th grade computer science in 1996 sort of way. |
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| it's been fun |
[Oct. 28th, 2006|01:07 am] |
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I don't know if I will continue with this LJ-revamping, but I removed a number of friends who were either inactive, or just not part of my life anymore. No hard feelings I hope, it's just how life is. I may join some communities to meet new people and see if I can forge some new friendships. Most people I know IRL in San Diego use myspace. LJ seems to be so five years ago now. Anyway, I don't know where any of this is going but such is life. /hugs to my peeps. Much love. |
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| random post |
[Oct. 28th, 2006|12:39 am] |
I haven't been here for over half a year. But after months at sea you sometimes go full circle. I miss being home with Tovah. I miss bare feet on carpet. I miss regular night's sleep.
We've done some cool and important operations but in the end I want something simpler. I long for the day in three and a half years when I'm free of all this. Having been a Naval Officer will land me outstanding civilian jobs if I choose, but we'll wait on that. Joining the military out of high school is a huge contradiction. I don't always care for the work and in the end I know it isn't where my soul wants to be (I'm too liberal and expressionistic to be here) but I love the person the military has trained me to be (honorable, hard working, tough, vigilent, strong, and able to deal with pressures that would crush most people).
I don't know why I'm writing but it just feels right. For my friends out there who may see this, I sincerely wish you well. I hope your lives are where you want them to be and you have found some semblance of peace within yourselves. |
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| the end? |
[Feb. 5th, 2006|11:48 am] |
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I don't really write here anymore but my life is good. I work a difficult but rewarding job and come home to my most wonderful wife every day. It has been great to not be going to sea and I'm enjoying each day as I approach as I watch our deployment creep closer. A lot has happened since my last update, far too much to really detail here. I don't write in my handwritten journal anymore and I sometimes wonder why I don't sit down and reflect like I used to. I think part of it is because I used to write to try and figure out who I am. I don't know everything (far from it) but I feel that I finally have a good grasp of who I am. I know what makes me laugh and what makes me angry. I know my fears and I know my passions.
This isn't a retirement from LJ so much as an explanation. This, my little corner of the internet, has been great, and though I've never been extremely popular I've always enjoyed writing and reading. I'm not saying I won't ever write here again but I will say that I don't anticipate doing so in the immediate future.
Justin, Kirsten, Holly, Norah, Ben--I always enjoy keeping up to date on your voyages through life but at this juncture I may fall behind. /hugs |
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| back for a while |
[Dec. 18th, 2005|06:59 am] |
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Home. There's nothing like it. These last three weeks underway were some sort of painful time warp. Shortly after getting back Tovah and I picked up where we left off, happy and just being together as if I hadn't been gone for three weeks. The house was just as I last saw it, with the exception of some most excellent Christmas decorations Tovah put up. She did a wonderful job and it completely caught me off guard. San Diego is the same, though not as warm as when I left it.
My time at sea was crazy. We were attached to a group of ships which are about to go to the gulf. When they go they will have a ship with them much like mine, but it wasn't here yet (coming around from East Coast) so we were asked to fill in. I saw some really interesting things and got to be in the middle of awesoome exercises. We did an "oil terminal defense" which I was in charge of one of our small boats, zipping back and forth across the water engaging, warning, and querying small craft which were doing everything from suspiciously approaching the terminal to blazing in guns firing. I got soaked, screamed at by my bosses (who felt the need to continually give me conflicting orders over two different radio frequencies), and was one of the only small boats whose sector was not penetrated.
Life at sea will most likely be the most surreal thing I will do in my life. Time takes on a whole new meaning. Five hours of work as a civilian used to be an eternity, nearly a full workday. Now, when it comes time for my watch (usually five hours) it's just an inconvenience to all the other work I have to do. Even better: there were seven hour watches--seven hours of standing, no sitting, no breaks, be alert the whole time. Those seven hour watches were painful but I got them done and immediately went back to do doing all the other things that need my attention. Though not as drastic as bootcamp, I'm being reminded of how impossibly precious a few minutes of personal time is.
Despite all that, I'm back now and so very excited. We're in our holiday standdown which means minimized working hours. I also take leave in ten days which will be awesome (paid vacation rocks). Tovah and I are going to a dance competition at the end of the month and life is good. I'm happy to be home. |
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[Nov. 29th, 2005|05:46 pm] |
I am told to take ownership and make decisions, but of course when I do (such as today on watch) those decisions are the wrong ones and I get bitched out. Lameness.
Still maintaining my bubble of postiveness as best I can.
Mid-December and returning home can't come fast enough. |
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| enjoying the day |
[Nov. 24th, 2005|07:42 pm] |
Happy Thanksgiving!
It seems as though I'm always looking to the future. In a couple of years I'll get promoted or next month I'm taking leave. It's been this way forever and I often miss the moment. Today I've enjoyed the day. Tovah and I went to the beach and laid out in the sun reading together (San Diego rocks). We rested together and talked, had a great dinner, and I played some video games. It's a day for the moment, not tomorrow, and I'm very happy for it.
I go out to sea for several more weeks relatively soon. I'm not thrilled about it but there's nothing I can do. However, and here's to looking to the future, when we get back we go into standdown and I take leave. It's going to be great. |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2005|06:52 am] |
I want to go home. I'm sick of my ship. Go Navy, rah rah ra...........*yawn* I want to run around the beach listening to music or lay on the grass in the sun. Cold, gray, steel is numbing my spirit.
I hardly write in my LJ anymore and my last entry in my hand written journal is around half a year old. I suppose things change. I used to write all the time.
I hope everyone has a happy thanksgiving tomorrow. |
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| so very long |
[Nov. 11th, 2005|06:22 pm] |
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I haven't updated for a very long time, but I suppose I haven't had a whole lot to say. Days turn into weeks and I'm somewhere in the blur of it all, a little confused, but content none-the-less.
Work is tiring and long hours as always. We pull out in a while and get underway for three weeks. I'm not exceptionally looking forward to that but the good thing is that when we get back we enter our holiday standdown and I get to take some leave. It is going to be heavenly. Tovah and I went to a dance competition two weeks ago. It was a Pacific Northwest event so we were able to see all of our old dance friends which was awesome. I had such a great time. Pure, simple fun. We also did very well, bringing home four trophies, a certificate and one-hundred dollars in prize money. Yay for dancing!
I'm just now getting over a cold that kicked my butt for nearly two weeks. Unfortunately the physical fitness test is this coming week and I have not been working out much because I was so laid up. I'm always the king of good timing.
I feel like this is a very superficial journal entry so I'm going to stop. Life is good, I just wish it would slow down a little. |
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